When siblings fall out: coping with sibling estrangement
After a dramatic fall out with her sister, Sophia Smith went in search of a solution to understand and overcome sibling estrangement...
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A hostile relationship with an adult sibling is a heartbreaking reality for many people. After a dramatic falling out with her sister, Sophia Smith went in search of a solution to rekindle their relationship and overcome sibling estrangement…
Falling out with my sibling
Her voice sounded so full of vitriol that I could barely make out what she was saying. โHateโ, โdisgustingโ and โnever want to see you againโ featured highly, though, as did other choice descriptors for me.
When I put down the phone, I was trembling. The shock of being told โ no, screamed at โ that someone despises you so much that they want to cut you out of their life for good is upsetting enough. The fact that the someone in question is your sister is even harder to bear.
I remained in shock for a few days after falling out with my sibling, playing the phonecall over and over in my head. Waves of anxiety and anger tore through my body as I recalled the sibling venom. I meditated. I cried. Then I got rational.
Rationalising sibling estrangement
My sisterโs attitude to family has been pretty negative for the last 20 years, even more so since meeting her husband a few years ago. From our teenage years, she started distancing herself, keen to bow out of landmark occasions and holidays, with my other sister and I picking up the pieces of her often-hurtful behaviour.
Our interaction since then has been transactional and perfunctory. We donโt even bother to send each other birthday or Christmas cards any more.
Feeling positive after the fall out with my sibling
As I emerged from the tailspin after falling out with my sister, I came around to thinking that actually, this sibling severing would not be such a great loss to my life. The relationship was causing me nothing but stress, irritation and upset so mixed in with the sadness at the fact Iโd failed in the big sister stakes was relief. Huge relief. At least we didnโt have to keep up the exhausting sham of forced happy families.
So instead of attempting any kind of reconciliation, I embraced my sisterโs proposal of sibling estrangement after the fall out. It was surprisingly liberating. Perhaps thatโs why sibling estrangement is on the rise, say experts in the field, with one in five families in the UK touched by it, according to charity Stand Alone. Many more, if you include people who are in superficial contact, but โemotionally estrangedโ.
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Is sibling estrangement common?
Sibling relationships are highly susceptible to this โcold warโ type of disconnection, says Stand Alone clinical chair Dr Jason Robinson, where there is โincreasing frostinessโ between two people. He believes that sibling abuse โ physical and emotional โ is rife and โmassively under reportedโ but, as a society, we shrug it off by saying โoh, thatโs just siblingsโ.
Understanding why siblings fall out
Iโm still confused about the events leading up to the fall out and the ultimate breakdown of my relationship with my sibling. The trigger โ seemingly a few careless comments Iโd made that she took exception to โ didnโt seem proportionate to her extreme reaction. However, shortly after this when her vitriol transferred squarely to my parents, it became obvious the issue ran much deeper than a simple falling out between siblings; her grievances with us were locked in the past.
Pages and pages of emails and texts, from my sister to my parents, rewrote the script of our childhood, recasting her as the Cinderella-esque character, sandwiched between two evil sisters and neglected by uncaring parents. It wasnโt a fairytale that I, or the rest of the family, recognised. Frustrated and seething, she then ceased all contact with my parents and sister, too.
How miscommunication can lead to falling out with a sibling
This scenario is very common, says Robinson, when communication has become superficial, strained or non-existent. โWe [all parties, not just the estranged] reconstruct a narrative from miscommunication to defend ourselves and reassure ourselves. But we build these stories in the absence of real feedback.โ
Itโs now been over a year since that phone call when I fell out with my sibling. Iโve not had any further contact with my sister and itโs been a tough 12 months. Not because Iโve missed her, but because Iโve had to watch my parents wither and fall apart, heartbroken. Theyโve been living through my worst nightmare: being told by your child that you have failed them as a parent.
Witnessing their pain only served to validate my belief that this toxic influence doesnโt deserve to be part of our family. Throughout the year, I was uncannily at peace with my decision to give up on the relationship with my sibling after the fall out.
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Deciding to reconnect after a sibling fall out
My peace with my decision to give up on my relationship with my sister after the fall out started to change when our sibling estrangement reached its first-year anniversary. As I realise how effortlessly one year could slip into two, 10, 50โฆ Iโm nagged by the thought: do I really want to sleepwalk into that?
Itโs as if Iโm edging towards the point of no return with a devil on one shoulder (โGo! Sheโs a bitch! You donโt want her contaminating your life!) and an angel on the other (โWhat about empathy? Compassion? Whereโs yours now?โ).
Iโve decided to try and drown out the devil and listen to the angel. Because no matter how liberating, I canโt escape the reality that cutting a blood tie, particularly in such a blasรฉ way, just doesnโt feel right.
Like it or not (and I donโt particularly like it) she is a link with where I come from and who I am. Thereโs also the guilt that perhaps, โestrangement is one of the tools we have in our toolbox as a family member, but itโs played too often and too quickly,โ says relationship psychologist, author and co-chair of the Council on Contemporary Families, Dr Joshua Coleman.
But where do I go from here?
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How to fix a sibling relationship after falling out
According to experts, the first step in healing a sibling rift is to honestly consider your role in causing and maintaining it. The next step is to try and see the situation from the other personโs perspective.
Dr Coleman, for instance, recommends โempathy, empathy, empathyโ because โyouโre not going to get anyoneโs attention if youโre only criticising or blaming them; people donโt come back into families because youโve shamed them to, usually itโs because they feel more understood. If you have it in you, reach out to them and take responsibility, even if you donโt agree with the intensity of their feelings.โ
Explore the wider perspective of your family dynamic
Struggling to take responsibility or empathise, I decided to explore the conflict using an approach called Constellations, where participants assume the roles of the family members, which Iโd heard can help you see a wider perspective.
Its premise is that deep emotions usuallyย ariseย because something is out of kilter in the wider family dynamic. The process tries to reach a resolution and, in facilitator and philosopher Robert Rowland Smithโs experience, โas a general rule, itโs better to include the excluded; the cost of excluding them is heavy for everybody in the family.โ
Applying this method to my own sibling rift
It was a gruelling, fascinating, uplifting, surreal hour. It reminded me that, not long ago, I was fighting the same demons from childhood that my sister is grappling with now โ low self-esteem, comparison and catastrophism.
Hours of therapy had helped me overcome them and see that, while our parents always wanted the best for us, inadvertently their strong influence left me feeling like I wasnโt good enough if I wasnโt achieving. Whereas I got depressed and blamed myself, my sister reacted by becoming aggressive, and blaming everyone around her.
But I no longer feel angry with her โ just sad. I know how painful that headspace is.
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Analysing my thoughts about my sibling and our falling out
Rowland Smith noted how much judgement there was loaded in the way I spoke, particularly about what a family โshouldโ be like. He made me realise that, while I may have worked hard to ease my self-judgment, I havenโt done this in relation to my sibling after the fall out.
Take what I said earlier about her not deserving to be part of our family. What gives me the right to decide that? She is part of my family and her relationships with other family members are just as valid as mine. Any fracture damages the whole.
Falling out with a sibling: you are not alone
Being open about my sibling situation has prompted many friends to share similar woes of unsisterly (or unbrotherly) relationships, revealing a dark, stigmatised underbelly of family life. Itโs comforting to know Iโm not alone. They may not have severed the link as dramatically as my sister and I, but theyโre very often emotionally distanced; the socially acceptable face of estrangement.
Ultimately, however, as Rowland Smith says, any kind of estrangement is โa futile gestureโ because even if you cut someone out of your life, mentally they live on in your head, cropping up in your dreams, worries and preoccupations. He offers me comfort, though, with his philosophy that conflicts like mine can ultimately strengthen the family unit if worked through.
โIf we have a completely successful, unblemished personal life we are slightly weightless, less real. Weโve got to learn to embrace the negative; itโs a stage in building ourselves,โ Rowland Smith points out.
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The link between โperfect familyโ pressure and sibling estrangement
Weโve also got to relieve the pressure to have โperfect familiesโ and accept the reality of messy human relationships. As Becca Bland, journalist and founder of Stand Alone says: โItโs worth being open because there will be a huge number of people who may be experiencing what youโre experiencing.โ
I like Rowland Smithโs idea that this annus horribilis could be a catalyst for rebuilding my sibling relationship on more solid foundations after falling out. If I could go back to my childhood and treat my sister better, I would.
Like many siblings, we spoke to each other in a way that I would never speak to a friend and made no attempt to hide the fact we didnโt get on, or try to see the good in one another. Sheโs also one of the few people Iโve ever wanted (and tried) to physically hurt in my life.
But alas, as a 40-something grown-up who canโt go back in time, I can only deal with the present. I have often wondered what I would do if I saw her in the street. A year ago, I would definitely have walked the other way. Now, I think, I wouldnโt. Iโd move towards her, a small step perhaps, and see what happened. That, at least, is progress.